I wanna know just who you're talking to when you're singin' in your sleep

Today's song: Do You Love Me? by Guster

Today was my first day of camp training! I was kind of nervous about it because I'm not very good meeting new people. I tend to be very shy and don't talk a lot. Unless it's a situation where I instantly click with someone, it takes me a long time to warm up and act like my loud, sarcastic, fun-loving self. And I hate this about myself. My best friend from home and I always talk about it and have found over the years that many people take our shyness and see it as us being snooty or too "goody two shoes" to talk to anybody. That's really not at all what either one of us are like. I love talking and getting to know people! I'm just the queen of awkward conversations. But today I woke up and listened to the most smile-enducing playlist and decided today I would be different. I would put myself out there and talk to people. I was going to introduce myself and ask questions. I want to have fun this summer and I want to make friends at camp so I don't hate this job (like every other one I've had) and to do that, I figured  I should actually put some effort into making these friends.
I arrived at camp and actually got there at the same time as another girl...we looked like we were there for the same thing so I went up and asked her if she was there for training. Hey guess what?! She was. We introduced ourselves and as it turns out, people aren't so bad. We had  to play all these ridiculous games throughout the day and it came to a surprise to me that when you are outgoing and don't care if you look a little foolish (come on, we all did), those games can actually be a lot of fun. I think I finally got over my insecurities and fear about meeting people! I met some great people and it's given me confidence enough to believe that this summer is going to be tons of fun.
Other than that, not a lot happened today. My sister comes home from Australia tonight...and by tonight I mean one in the morning. Even though I'm thoroughly exhausted and I'm probably going to hate myself tomorrow morning, I think I'll stay up to welcome her back. I have a strange feeling she'll have a ring on her finger...that may have something to do with me wanting to stay up and see her!
Anyway, I found this really great poem today that after reading just the first line, I was in love with. It's written by E.E. Cummings so obviously it has to be good, right? Right. I guess that's what I'll leave you with today...a little piece of beautiful love.

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in
my heart) I am never without it (anywhere
I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet ) I want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

Thanks for reading :)

Love,

Rachel