Wednesday, May 23, 2012

through chaos as it swirls, it's us against the world

Today's song: Us Against The World by Coldplay

I skipped a day! Noooo! I thought I was going to have more time/energy yesterday after I went out for drinks with my friend from high school. But alas, I had one too many margaritas. It was a great time though. We tried to go downtown to this semi-swanky place. We had a couple mojitos (delish!) but old people started filing in and we decided some good old Mad Mex would be a better choice. So we headed over there and ordered ourselves some "Big Azz Margaritas"...literally a huge cup full of tequila, with a splash of mix. But who am I to complain? It was perfect. Upon my return home, I no longer felt tired so I decided my best move would be to get on Facebook. Let me tell you, it was not my best move. I left this guy I like a VIDEO. And I mean like...a DRUNK. VIDEO. So embarrassing! I mean, I was going on and on about how I miss him and how my hair was being too big. Which actually, it wasn't. I was having a really great hair day actually. He ended up finding it hilarious though so I suppose if I was able to make him laugh, what's a little embarrassment?
Moving right along to today, I've had quite an on-off day with my mother. Sometimes she treats me like I'm five years old and I don't mean to sound like a whiney tween or anything...I love my mother. I think she is a strong and beautiful woman. But she really knows how to get under my skin. It's like all day, we could not carry on a normal conversation. We would start talking about one thing, and then the next thing I know, she is bossing me around and telling me what I'm doing wrong and how I need to fix this and that. I just hate that. It gets to the point where I know she's trying to do it "out of love" or whatever, but it gets to be a bit annoying when you're twenty-one and your own mother doesn't even trust you to remember to apply sunscreen. I'm trying not to complain too much because things have been going alright lately, but I had to have a mini-rant at least! Plus, we did end up watching You Got Mail (one of our shared favorite movies) and making fun of my Facebook friends for a while, so that was pretty enjoyable.
On another note, my ex sent me a really sweet text this evening. He must have been thinking about when we first met, judging from his message. It was so out of left field though, that I wasn't even sure how to respond. It got me thinking about this past year and all the fun we've had together. But I just have to keep stopping myself. It's not good for either one of us right now and I think I'm doing an okay job of moving forward and not concentrating on it.
Tomorrow is my shopping for a work uniform day with my mother so we'll how much fun that will be...
Thanks for reading :)
Love,
Rachel

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